Current location:	Work
Current mood:	nostalgic
Current music:	"Chasing Pavements"-Adele

The stages
Song lyric of the moment-"I hate everything about you"-Three Days Grace

I was having a talk with ATV last night and came up with something interesting.  When you have a falling out with someone (a break up, a loss of friendship, family issues, whatever), and you were NOT the party that terminated the situation, there are stages you go through to get back to normal.  I'm not sure how many people make it to the later stages, but I find it interesting regardless.  They are:

1) "This was all a mistake.  Things will be back to normal in no time."
2) "Why is it taking them so long to come back and make things normal again?"
3) "Oh, God!  Please, I'll do anything to go back to the way it used to be!"
4) "Things will never be the same again.  I will lose myself in booze/parties/pity."
5) "This isn't worth it anymore.  I won't let another person destroy me."
6) "Look what I overcame!  Fuck you, you hear me?  Fuck you!"
7) "I'm awesome.  Fuck you."
8) "It's not that I hate you anymore, I just never need to see you again."
9) "It's not that I hate you or that I want things the way they were before.  I guess I just miss your company.  Maybe we could be friends?"
10) "We can coexist peacefully.  We can be a part of each other's lives again.  All is right with the world."

ATV is at stage 7 or 8 (he thinks he's at 8, I think he's at 7) with this one person.  As for me?  I'm at a 9 with a few different people; if any of them actually reached out at all, I could probably work that into some 10s.  Of course, this is my life we're talking about, where I'm the only one who ever extends olive branches.  I'd be legitimately impressed if any of them did, though.  Sigh.

Sometimes I'm surrounded by people and couldn't feel more lonely.

-Dr. B